Almost didn't include this factoid because I didn't want to be a hater, but it became relevant: there is praise from Blake Butler in some of the acclaim on the first few pages which made me think that I wouldn't like it. That the first actual page of text doesn't occur until pp 16 in a book that's 89 pages long seems masturbatory. That 4.7% of the remaining 73 pages of anti-memoir consist of ball knowledge of Vampire Survivors actually rules so much. +1 because this distribution and the placement of this aside works so perfectly in the context of an otherwise self-aware-but-nevertheless-self-absorbed screed

I think I read this book at one of the only times when I might appreciate it because I'm using it as a break from Ducks Newburyport, which is this but about 15 times longer and not nearly as good. As an implicit statement "The male internal monologue vs. the female internal monologue," I would maybe choose Ed Atkins to be the champion of the boyish mind.

I like making whatever bad thing you're redeemable because I don't trust future me to be consistent with current me. I'm know I'm inconsistent in. This can be frightening.

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I like that there's formaldehyde and vapes, but I don't like popcorn, lung.… I secretly vape on planes, in cinemas, in concert halls; everywhere you can't vape you can actually vape very easily vape without discovery

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I can retroactively author my cough by italicizing it when it happens. I make bad things worse to pretend I wanted them to happen bad in the first place I take a lack of control and draw attention to it and make it seem like I'm in control.

This book is kind of like reading somebody's journal, but they left it out for you. It feels personal, but the personal bits feel forced for our benefit. Some of it is likely authentic, but knowing that it's intended for spectacle tracks from the authenticity. I think I almost prefer straightforward fiction where the spectacle is announced, and then the authenticity sneaks in under the radar.

I want to adverbalize words that don't usually get to be

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When enemies are frozen the damage done by other weapons increases which can hold back hordes that come until half an hour up when a Grim Reaper comes and kills you with a kiss. Steam says I have put 952.7 hours into Slay the Spire. These are the ways I like to be touched and to touch: I like kissing so much.

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The point of having a car for me is always to have a little turbo freedom where you can smoke and listen to music, even stay the night or live. You can go anywhere. Pick up your friends you can bomb down the road and go anywhere, maybe stop off at the service station for supplies. You can park up and get out, stretch your legs and walk around a place you can't get to otherwise.

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